I may not have to see a shrink about my problems after all. Taking time to do the things I enjoy (working out, hanging out with friends, living in a tidy house) has made me have a paradigm shift. Grad school will be only as awesome (or not awesome) as I make it. I can’t control situations around me, or change the people around me; the only thing I can do is accept things for being the way they are, and change the way I perceive the things happening around me.
This week has been a rather ‘light’ week in the sense that I’ve had only one oral exam, and while I should be grading more this week, I’m not overly concerned about returning papers back to my students (I’m technically a week behind… but that’s what Thanksgiving is for right?). I guess I need to find a hobby, maybe not this semester, but next semester and in future ones, It will be necessary for me to take time for myself and meet people who aren’t chemists. Chemistry 24/7 is kinda driving me crazy.
I need to take time for myself; I’ll probably be more productive anyway.
This weekend has been interesting to say the least. My house is still a pigsty… wooden bed frame still needs to be sanded/stained/and assembled and until I get around to doing this, I will have parts of my bed frame lying all around the living room/kitchen. Normally, I try to keep things on my kitchen counters to a minimum. I don’t like seeing too much clutter. I think my mind is going a bit crazy seeing all the stuff that I have to do.
I’ve spent most of my time in lab over the weekend working on electronics. Friday night, after electronics lab, I went to a friend’s place for ‘card night’ which ended up being an evening of giddyness and cheap wine. I spent Saturday morning in electronics lab, Saturday afternoon working on sanding wood for the bed, and Saturday night studying for electronics. Today I spent the morning chatting it up with my mom, having my dad school me in electronics, and studying for the exam, and then in the afternoon, I spent time in lab. Sense a trend yet?
Fortunately, I’ve had time to make use of my oven and awesome cooking skills. Here’s the pizza I ended up making. Some friends came over and it was nice to just chill out, eat pizza, and mousse and not worry about stuff.
Time to study. again.
So yesterday, some chem friends and I ditched seminar (before the boring speakers came) and instead went outside and played in the grassy knoll outside of the chemistry/technology building
It was refreshing to take yesterday evening off. I’ve actually gotten more than 6 hours of sleep last night (personal accomplishment since starting graduate school), and I’m starting to feel better about everything here in general.
I guess that’s all for now. I have a full day of teaching to look forward to (NOT), and I’ve got to finish up writing some LabView VI’s for electronics.
I’m hoping my dining table I ordered comes in the mail. I’ll take pics when I get it all assembled! It’s so nice to get paid a regular salary again 🙂
Things have picked up rapidly here in the last week. I’m already deep in the muck of electronics, and have so much to do for that class it’s not even funny (Finish lab, write report, study for oral). I also found out that I have my oral exam next Monday night from 7-11 pm… that’s past my bedtime! Then, in addition to all this, I’ve got to teach. Today is my first day teaching and I got stuck doing 2 sections of gen chem lab. UGH. I teach from noon to 6:30 today. I haven’t yet decided if I’m thankful to have both of my sections back to back on the same day; in a way its great since I can get the teaching stuff out of the way and only have one day gone kaput. In another way, I could see this being terribly bad, since I have to sit through 6 hours of whiny students. I’ll be sure to update you on how things go in any case.
To make matters worse, and my life busier and more exhausting than it needs to be, the first year students are required to go to these C500 seminars where professors give a 20 minute shpiel on their research. I’m all for these, I love learning about new research and I think it is crucial for us to know what profs in the dept. are doing… but the fact that these seminars are at 5:45pm is ridiculous. I get to campus at 7:30 in the morning, and staying on campus for longer than 12 hrs without a break is starting to get on my nerves. I guess I’ll have to get used to it.
This is grad school of course.
I’m not gunna lie, I’m slightly nervous about my first day of school tomorrow… in fact, my class does not start until 9:00 am, and I’m waking up at 6:3o am. I probably won’t sleep much anyway simply because I’m anxious and I never get sleep on the first day of school/work because I’m always excited.
As promised, my camera is now functioning and I’ve been taking photos of my new place. Here are some photos of the back yard area before:
The before part was actually much worse than that… the pictures were taken immediately after de-weeding the area. Before I hacked away at the bushes/weeds, the area was a dump. Because the area is small, it is easy to manage and I didn’t have to do too much. I planted some mums for the fall, cleared out the weeds around the A/C unit and put marble chips in its place, and then cleared out the area adjacent to the A/C unit for a future herb garden.
The last photo is my flower bed in the front. I planted a knockout rose and some other perennial that produces purple flowers in the front. The white flowers were given to me by a friend who came to my housewarming. Super sweet 🙂
On a happy note, I managed to assemble … with the aid of 3 chemists and a plumber, we finished assembling it in about 3 hours. Whew! Here it is!
I better try to get some sleep so I can be ready for tomorrow.
I’m really liking it here now, and moving here has made me realize how great Texas is and how despite my not liking football, and redneck culture, I’m actually freakin’ proud to be a Texan. The fact that I say ‘ya’ll’ and the slight twang I have when I say ‘Hay!’ and the way I love the heat/sun/humidity all make me who I am. I love it. I’m learning that I love me, that’s a great feeling.
When I left Texas, I was miserable, I never thought I’d find a niche for myself. I thought I was established in Texas, and that it would take me forever to put the pieces back together. I was wrong. I’m faring well here, currently, the weather is gorgeous, my garden a pleasure to tend to, the campus quaint, and the people amazing. I have a feeling the next 5 years will be awesome.
Until next time, I found my camera btw… I’ll take photos and start posting so you don’t have to read so much 😉
The last week has been a whirlwind of sorts to say the least. My parents helped me move into my new house and the painters came and painted the place ‘sedate grey,’ I did craploads of gardening, and have been trying to settle in/get used to living here in Bloomington.
I think I had my ‘moment’ of being a proud homeowner when my father and I had left home to go buy some screws and upon returning to the house, I rang the doorbell. The coolest feeling occurred when my father looked at me and smiled…. the doorbell is a sign of true homeownership, and the ring made it all tie in together. I love it here.
Yesterday night I had some friends over for dinner and to hang out, it’s nice to be able to have people come over and have room for them to actually hang out in instead of being crammed into a small apartment.
Today was the first day of orientation… mildly boring, but a necessary evil. My only consolation is that the graduate students were fed and that I met some other really neat first years here. I also just dropped about 350$ on textbooks on the way home… fun. :(…
Too bad it is only in my head.
Wish me luck on my 17 hour drive today/tomorrow….. I’ll need it. :-/